Finances, Husband, & Stress...not all in that order!

I have nothing going on at work today...very boring and quiet. Thank goodness! But, one thing is going on today...the dreaded fight-with-husband-while-at-work ordeal! I just hate when I'm at work and stressing as usual about everything I need to do at home! I spoke to my husband on the phone and of course when the subject of finances and the future of our finances (or the lack there of) an argument erupted! Why does it seem that women worry more than men about stuff? Or, is it just that women worry and vocalize it, and men worry the same amount but just don't say anything? Either way, my husband irritated me to no end! Every time I bring up the finances, he responds with "don't worry" or "I'll take care of it", but if that were true why are we always struggling financially? I know, when growing up, I remember my parents always telling me how "poor" they were and that they didn't have any money, but we still managed to go on vacations and go out to eat every now and then. So, is their "poor" the same as my "poor"? No! We are so strapped right now...counting every penny! I'm exhausted from keeping up with the money we don't have...I would at least like to see a light at the end of this very long tunnel. The stress involved with money is so much deeper than I could have ever imagined. It's not something that I stress about for 5 minutes then I'm over it for a few days...it's constant! We, of course, have the company we've started...but, we have 3 customers...the same 3 from 2 months ago...I see no light anywhere in this tunnel...I can't even turn on my own flashlight! So, now, on top of the financial stress there is the addition of the fight-with-the-husband stress. I guess God is really pushing my limit on what I can handle! I'm about to that breaking point to where I just want to lie down and raise the white flag. But, what would that help? Doing nothing is definitely worse than not keeping up with the financial plan. I've done the give-up-and- fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants thing...but, the only thing that comes out of that scenario is that I just lose my pants and can't afford another pair. Anyway, the stress with the husband is worse I think...even though it's not as long lasting as the financial saga. I hate sitting at work...and being in pure boredom as usual...and being mad and hurt and having everything being unresolved. What's so bad is that when I was on the phone with him giving him my two cents (which was all I could afford) I said some pretty yucky things. The yucky things though came out of real fears and feelings...I meant some of those things, but I could have verbalized them better and been not so accusing to him being the only culprit in this mess. So, should I apologize for the spouting off of my stress and anxiety? Probably, but why is it so hard to do that when you really meant a lot of what you said (not all the accusing things though)? It's pride for sure...I always have to be right...and if I'm not, I always have to still act like I'm right! I will have to mull that over for awhile...and I've got the time...I get to mull it over for at least another 4 hours. And, being upset at work is worse than at home...there's nothing here to take my mind off of it...my work requires no brainpower (what I'm doing today) so I've got the full 4 hours for this to play and re-run through my mind! Gripes!
PS-the lady in the cube across from me is clipping her finger nail-all I hear is the snapping-they are falling on the carpet....nasty!!